Off to Barcelona
Off to Barcelona tomorrow morning. I'm all packed except for a couple of articles of clothing that are still hang-drying. I've always loved to travel, but this time I'm not looking forward to the trip. In fact, I'd rather not be going. I'm going to miss Baby Girl terribly. And Tim too, of course. But we've travelled without each other before. It's just tearing me to pieces just thinking about the fact that for 5 whole days I won't have my little sweetheart to cuddle and kiss and hug and play with and tickle and laugh and giggle with.
I'm terrified she's going to forget all about me. She'll forget what I look like, the sound of my voice, the way I hold her.
I'm scared she won't miss me.
And I'll be honest and admit that I'm a little worried that Tim will manage everything just fine without me; even better than I would. And then he'll wonder why I wasn't able to stay on top of it all. I know even if he does manage just fine without me (and most of me does hope he does) he'd never wonder that. Sigh. I'm going to miss Tim too so much!
So I'm trying hard to concentrate on what one could consider the positives of this trip. I mean, since I'm going to be there I might as well get something out of it:
- It's Spain! I've never been to Spain. Although I only have one day of sight seeing and that is the day I arrive. But I didn't want to spend anymore time there than I had to.
- It's probably warmer there than it is here.
- I will be able to get 8 consecutive hours of sleep (I probably won't; my body has pretty much adjusted to the 3am waking, and I actually really love that time with Baby Girl - just me and her)
- There is a gym and a pool in my hotel so I can work out every day!
- I'll get to drink real Spanish Sangria in Spain! And eat real Spanish Tapas!
- I'll be able to add to Baby Girl's growing postcard collection. I started sending her postcards last year before she was born - when I was still pregnant.
But as much as I try and concentrate on the positives, I'd give them all up in a heartbeat if it meant spending that time with Baby Girl and Tim instead.
Ah well.
More later from Barcelona!
Comments
So hard to leave Baby Girl. She will miss you terribly and you will miss her the same. Each moment of the day you will wonder how and what she is doing or say to yourself "She should be eating lunch right now. I wonder what she is having - yellow or green?". Tim will do great. It will not be the same as yours, but it will be great just the same. The homecoming will be the best ever and she will know her Mom.
Posted by Pat (Debra's Mom) on February 11, 2006 7:30 AM.Have a great trip!!
It will be difficult, but she won't forgot you. We never forgot Dad when he went away, right? Maybe you could start an international doll collection for BG just like we had when we were little?
Posted by Sarah on February 11, 2006 12:09 PM.